Part 2
“Clara, I gave birth three months ago.”
“And?”
I stared at the phone.
“And I am not going to lose four dress sizes in two weeks.”
“Well, perhaps this will finally motivate you.”
I didn’t answer.
She kept going.
“My son has always taken care of himself. The least you could do is make an effort too.”
“An effort?”
“Jennifer, don’t turn this into drama. Eat less. Walk more. You’ve had months.”
“Months?”
“When was the last time you actually looked at yourself?”
I hung up.
Simon came home about an hour later.
I was sitting on the couch feeding our daughter when he noticed the box.
“Is that Mom’s famous anniversary dress?”
I looked at him.
“Your mother ordered it four sizes too small.”
He froze halfway through taking off his jacket.
“By accident?”
“No.”
His face changed immediately.
So I told him everything.
The laughter.
The comment about losing weight.
The suggestion that I needed to make myself more attractive for him.
Simon sat beside me and rubbed his face.
“Jen…”
“Don’t.”
He looked up.
“Please don’t tell me she’s just being your mother.”
His hand dropped.
Because for years, that had always been the excuse.
Clara criticized my cooking?
“That’s just Mom.”
Clara questioned the way I decorated our house?
“Ignore her.”
Clara made some cutting remark at dinner?
“She doesn’t mean anything by it.”
Simon always supported me.
Privately.
And suddenly, that distinction mattered more than it ever had before.
“I’m not wearing the dress,” I said.
“Of course you’re not.”
“I’ll buy another one.”
“We’ll buy another one,” he corrected.
I looked down at our sleeping daughter.
Simon followed my gaze.
Then he said quietly,
“I should’ve stopped this years ago.”
I didn’t answer.
Two days later, Simon came shopping with me.
I found a dress made from soft fabric with a waistline that actually sat where my waist existed now.
I could sit comfortably.
I could breathe.
I could lift my arms without worrying that the seams were going to declare war on me.
When I stepped out of the fitting room, Simon smiled.
“That one.”
“You haven’t even seen the others.”
“Don’t care.”
I turned toward the mirror.
Simon appeared behind me in the reflection.
“You comfortable?”
“Yes.”
“Then we’re done.”
I bought it.
What I didn’t know was that Simon made a phone call later that afternoon.
The anniversary dinner was being held at an expensive restaurant outside the city.
It had a private dining room bigger than the apartment Simon and I first shared.
Clara loved events like that.
And Clara especially loved rules.
Women were supposed to wear blue or black.
Men had to wear tuxedos.
No patterned ties.
No casual jackets.
Professional photos at exactly 7:30.
Family portrait before dessert.
She had emailed everyone a three-page schedule.
When Simon and I arrived, my father-in-law, Dave, spotted us first.
“There they are!”
He crossed the room and hugged Simon before turning to me.
“You look lovely, Jennifer.”
“Thank you.”
Then Clara saw me.
Her eyes immediately dropped to my dress.
“That is NOT what I ordered.”
“No,” I said calmly.
She looked me up and down.
“I can see that.”
Simon stepped closer beside me.
I kept my voice polite.
“The other dress didn’t fit.”
“It would have if you had listened to me.”
Dave looked between us.
“Clara…”
“What? I’m not going to lie to her.”
Then she pinched the fabric near her own waist.
“This dress doesn’t flatter you either. It looks cheap.”
Simon’s voice cut across the room.
“Mom. Enough.”
Everything seemed to go quiet.
Clara stared at him.
“I’m trying to help your wife.”
“No. You’re insulting my wife.”
Her cheeks flushed.
“I only want what’s best for you, Simmy.”
Then she looked directly at me.
“My son deserves a more attractive woman.”
Something inside me went completely still.
I looked at Simon.
But suddenly, I didn’t want anyone defending me.
I didn’t want to stand in the middle of somebody else’s anniversary celebration while an entire room debated whether my postpartum body was acceptable.
“I need the restroom.”
Simon reached toward me.
“Jen…”
“I’m fine.”
I wasn’t.
But I desperately needed five minutes alone.
Inside the restroom, I locked myself in a stall and sat on the closed toilet.
I was angry.
At Clara.
At myself for still letting her comments hurt me.
And a little at Simon too.
Because years of telling me to ignore his mother had apparently taught her that she could say absolutely anything and still be welcomed into our lives afterward.
Then the restroom door opened.
Two women walked in talking.
“Did yours fit?”
“Eventually.”
“What does that mean?”
“Clara had the boutique alter the sleeves.”
I stopped breathing.
The other woman gave an uncomfortable laugh.
“Mine too. She said my arms don’t photograph well.”
“You’re joking.”
“I wish I was.”
Their voices faded as they left.
I remained in the stall staring at the door.
My dress wasn’t an isolated incident.
Clara hadn’t simply bought me something inappropriate.
She had been redesigning women.
Changing sizes.
Changing sleeves.
Changing how she thought we should look.
Then I heard Clara scream from somewhere outside.
“Those are mine!”
I rushed out of the restroom.
The private dining room had erupted into chaos.
A server hurried toward the entrance.
Beside the wall was a rolling clothing rack holding three garment bags.
Standing beside it was a woman I didn’t recognize, dressed in a sleek black suit with a boutique badge clipped near her shoulder.
Apparently, Clara had arranged for several women’s dresses to be delivered directly to the restaurant for final fittings before the family photographs.
Simon stood nearby.
Dave looked deeply uncomfortable.
Clara had one hand tightly wrapped around the handle of a garment bag.
The boutique employee spoke calmly.
“Ma’am, please release the garment.”
“I paid for these dresses!”
“You paid deposits.”
“Don’t play games with me.”
Dave frowned.
“Clara, let the woman do her job.”
Clara spun toward him.
“This is our property!”
The boutique coordinator shook her head.
“No. The garments remain boutique property until the clients accept them and the remaining balances are paid.”
Then she added,
“You also disputed the remaining charges after demanding that we deliver the dresses here tonight.”
Dave stared at his wife.
“You did what?”
Clara hesitated.
“There were problems with the orders.”
“Problems you requested,” the woman replied. “We have records of every size change and alteration authorized by you.”
Clara stiffened.
Then she turned toward the restaurant manager.
“Are you seriously going to let this woman leave with thousands of dollars worth of clothing I paid for?”
The manager remained calm.
“She has documentation showing the garments belong to the boutique.”
Clara tightened her grip.
“Nobody is taking them.”
The coordinator reached toward the garment bag.
“Ma’am, I need you to release it.”
“I said no.”
The restaurant manager stepped forward.
“If you refuse to return property belonging to the boutique, I will have to contact the police.”
Clara stared at him.
“Go ahead.”
So he did.
Twenty minutes later, two police officers entered the dining room.
By then, almost every guest had given up pretending they weren’t watching.
Clara immediately approached them.
“She’s trying to remove property I paid for.”
One officer looked toward the boutique coordinator.
“Ma’am?”
The woman handed him a folder.
While the officers reviewed the paperwork, Simon came over to me.
“Jen.”
“What is happening?”
He glanced toward his mother.
“The manager called the police because Mom refused to let the boutique take the dresses.”
“Because of the dresses?”
“Yes. But there’s something else.”
Before he could explain, one of the officers looked across the room.
“Is Jennifer here?”
Every head turned.
I stepped forward.
“That’s me.”
The officer gave me a reassuring expression.
“You’re not in any trouble.”
Clara started to speak.
He lifted one hand.
“Ma’am, please.”
Then he turned back to me.
“We were called regarding a dispute involving several garments from tonight’s event. The vendor has provided documentation showing that the disputed clothing still belongs to the boutique.”
I looked at Clara.
“You’re fighting over dresses that aren’t even yours?”
“They were paid for!”
The officer corrected her.
“Deposits were paid. That does not establish ownership.”
Clara’s face went bright red.
The boutique coordinator added,
“Several garments were also never accepted by the women they were ordered for.”
I immediately thought about the conversation I had overheard in the restroom.
Then Simon touched my elbow.
“Jen, come with me.”
He led me toward the coatroom.
The boutique coordinator followed us carrying a tablet.
Clara started after us.
Dave stopped her.
“Let them go.”
The coordinator opened an order record.
My name appeared at the top.
Jennifer.
Below it was my actual current dress size.
Then underneath was a later modification.
Four sizes smaller.
Authorized by Clara.
My stomach tightened.
Then I saw the typed instruction beside it.
DO NOT SUBSTITUTE LARGER.
I read it twice.
Simon spoke quietly.
“I called the boutique two days ago because I wanted to exchange your dress.”
I turned toward him.
“You did?”
“Yes.”
The coordinator scrolled farther down.
“There’s something else you should probably see.”
She opened another file Clara had attached to the orders.
“Your mother-in-law wanted every woman’s clothing coordinated according to where she intended them to stand in the family portrait.”
I looked at Simon.
Then back at the screen.
It wasn’t another dress order.
It was a diagram.
At the top were the words:
FORMAL FAMILY PORTRAIT.
Every family member’s name had been arranged into rows.
Beside several women’s names were handwritten notes.
JACKET CLOSED.
KEEP SEATED.
TURN LEFT.
SLEEVES DOWN.
Then I found mine.
JENNIFER — BACK EDGE. SIMON FRONT.
I stared at the screen.
Suddenly, everything made sense.
Clara hadn’t simply wanted me to lose weight.
She had prepared a backup plan in case I didn’t.
Hide me at the edge.
Put Simon in front.
Make me less visible.
Behind us, Clara’s voice cut through the hallway.
“What exactly are you showing her?”
Simon turned.
Clara stood there with Dave behind her.
Her face was still flushed from the argument with the police.
But now she looked angry.
Simon glanced once more at the screen.
Then at his mother.
“Mom…”
His voice was quiet.
“Did you want Jennifer to lose weight?”
He paused.
“Or did you just want her to disappear?”
Clara said nothing.
For the first time that entire evening, neither did I.
Finally, she crossed her arms.
“I was trying to make the photograph look nice.”
Simon stepped closer to me.
“Then listen carefully.”
Clara stared at him.
“From now on, you do not comment on Jen’s body.”
He continued.
“You do not buy clothes designed to change the way she looks.”
“You do not decide where she belongs in photographs.”
“And if you cannot respect those boundaries, we will stop coming to events like this.”
Clara looked stunned.
Simon didn’t look away.
Then Dave spoke.
“Clara, this is our fortieth anniversary.”
He shook his head.
“I think I’ve earned one photograph of my actual family instead of your carefully arranged version of them.”
At that moment, the photographer approached cautiously.
“How would you like everyone positioned?”
Clara inhaled, clearly preparing to answer.
Dave interrupted her.
“Ask them.”
So the photographer did.
People stood wherever they wanted.
One aunt stayed seated because her knees were hurting.
A cousin removed the wrap Clara had insisted she wear.
Another relative loosened his tie.
And I stood directly beside Simon.
Exactly where I wanted to be.
Right before the picture was taken, I leaned toward him.
“Do I look okay?”
Simon looked at me.
“Are you comfortable?”
I glanced down at the dress I had chosen myself.
“Yes.”
“Then you look perfect.”
Click.
Later that evening, the boutique coordinator held up Clara’s original blue dress.
“Would you like us to reorder this in your correct size?”
I looked at it once.
Then shook my head.
“No, thank you.”
And I handed it back myself.
Toward the end of the evening, one of the grandchildren showed Clara a candid photograph taken during all the chaos.
Dave’s tie was crooked.
Someone in the background was laughing with their mouth wide open.
Another relative wasn’t looking at the camera.
And I was holding a forkful of cake.
Nothing about it was perfectly arranged.
Clara stared at the screen.
“Delete—”
Then she stopped.
She looked at the picture again.
For several seconds, nobody said anything.
Finally she murmured,
“…Send me that one.”
Across the room, I took another bite of cake.
Clara noticed.
For once, she kept her opinion to herself.