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I believed saying goodbye to the man I had loved for most of my life would be the most painful thing I would ever endure.

I was wrong.

The true reason Thomas had returned to me was not revealed until after he was gone.

Rain tapped gently against the window of my small rented apartment as I sat alone, stirring a cup of instant coffee that my budget could barely afford.

At seventy-three, I had returned to the town I had left when I was seventeen. The buildings had changed, the shops had different names, and many familiar faces were gone.

Yet somehow, the streets still remembered me.

My pension was not enough to cover the rising rent and everyday expenses, so I had taken my old nursing badge from a drawer, bought a new uniform, and returned to work at the local hospital.

It was the same profession I had retired from years earlier.

Coming home was strange.

Almost nothing looked the way I remembered, but everything carried the same feeling.

I had never married.

I had never had children.

There had been a few relationships over the years and several kind men who had tried to build a life with me.

But none of them had ever been Thomas.

I had not spoken his name aloud in more than fifty years.

Thomas had been my first love.

We were both seventeen when we met, young enough to believe that promises could last forever simply because we meant them when we made them.

I had earned a place at a college in another city.

Thomas had chosen to remain in town and work at his father’s hardware business.

On the day I left, he stood beside me at the bus station with tears in his eyes.

“Please don’t go, Nancy,” he begged.

“I have to,” I told him. “I worked too hard to give this opportunity up.”

“Then you’re breaking my heart.”

Those were almost the last words he ever said to me.

I boarded the bus, left town, and spent the next fifty-six years believing I would never see him again.

The ringing telephone pulled me out of the memory.

I knew who it was before I answered.

“Nancy, it’s Raymond,” a cheerful voice said. “I’m checking on my favorite cousin.”

Favorite cousin.

Raymond and I had barely spoken in thirty years.

But ever since I returned to town, he had started calling nearly every week.

His voice was always friendly, yet his questions made me uncomfortable.

“How’s the apartment?” he asked. “Rent must be difficult on a pension.”

“I’m managing.”

“Have you organized your paperwork? Your will? Your banking information? A woman living alone at your age needs to prepare for these things.”

I forced my voice to remain polite.

“I’m fine, Raymond.”

“You know, I used to visit Aunt Margaret all the time before she died. I helped her handle her finances and personal affairs. Family should take care of family.”

Something about the way he said it made my coffee suddenly taste bitter.

“That was kind of you,” I replied. “But I have to get ready for work.”

I ended the call before he could ask anything else.

The hospital smelled of disinfectant, medicine, and the quiet anxiety that seemed to live permanently inside its walls.

That morning, I pushed my cart down the long hallway, checking room numbers and patient charts.

I was already exhausted, and it was not even ten o’clock.

Room 220.

A new patient had been admitted for long-term care.

I opened the door, stepped inside, and glanced at the chart.

The first name made me stop breathing.

Thomas.

Then I saw the surname beneath it.

My hands tightened around the file.

It could not be him.

There had to be hundreds of men with that name.

But when I raised my eyes toward the patient lying in the bed, I recognized him immediately.

Fifty-six years had passed, but they had not erased the face I remembered.

Thomas was thinner now.

His skin was pale, and illness had left deep shadows beneath his eyes.

Yet those eyes were still the same ones that had watched me board a bus all those years ago.

He looked at me and smiled as though he had been expecting me.

“Hello, Nancy,” he said softly.

For several seconds, I could not speak.

I stood beside his bed holding a blood pressure cuff, feeling as if my entire life had followed me into that hospital room.

“Thomas,” I finally whispered. “Oh my goodness. Thomas.”

After that day, I found reasons to visit his room during every shift.

Sometimes I checked his medication.

Sometimes I brought him water.

Sometimes I simply sat beside him after my duties were finished.

Thomas told me he had never married.

I confessed that I had not married either.

We laughed about our gray hair, our aching knees, and the foolish dreams we had once shared.

Other times, we sat in silence, comfortable in a way that made the lost decades between us feel smaller.

“You still drink your coffee black?” he asked one afternoon.

“I do.”

“I knew you would.”

There was something unusual about his calmness.

Many patients with serious illnesses were frightened, angry, or overwhelmed.

Thomas seemed peaceful.

He carried himself like someone who had been waiting a very long time for one final thing to happen.

One morning, he asked me a careful question.

“Do you have any family nearby, Nancy? Anyone helping you?”

“Only a distant cousin named Raymond. He has been calling more often since I moved back.”

For one brief moment, Thomas’s expression changed.

His jaw tightened.

Then he relaxed and quickly changed the subject.

I did not understand why at the time.

That same week, Raymond’s calls became even more persistent.

“Are you seeing anyone?” he asked. “You shouldn’t be alone at your age.”

“I’m doing fine.”

“Have you made a will? Someone responsible should be listed in case something happens.”

“I told you, Raymond. I’m fine.”

He asked which bank I used.

He wanted to know whether I owned the apartment.

He mentioned Aunt Margaret again, proudly describing how he had handled everything near the end of her life.

I remembered that Margaret had died almost penniless in a rented room.

For the first time, I wondered why that memory made me so uneasy.

Still, I ignored my instincts.

I had spent much of my life ignoring things that made me uncomfortable.

Then, one afternoon, Thomas asked me to sit beside him.

His hand found mine on top of the blanket.

It felt light and cold.

“Nancy,” he said, “I feel terrible asking this.”

Our conversations had grown more affectionate with each passing day, but the seriousness in his voice frightened me.

“Ask me.”

“I have loved you for my entire life.”

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