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For six years, my son and I planted sunflowers for the twin sister he lost when they were only six. But last Saturday, before sunrise, we stepped into the garden and found every flower cut down except one.

Hanging from that single stem was a small white box.

My son Patrick lost his twin sister, Lily, when they were six years old. They had been inseparable from the day they were born. If Patrick laughed, Lily laughed with him. If Lily cried, Patrick cried too. Lily was fearless. Patrick was careful, always watching for danger.

One summer afternoon, we were at my parents’ farmhouse. The twins asked if they could take stale bread down to the pond behind the pasture to feed the ducks. I said yes.

Only Patrick came back.

He was soaked up to his knees, covered in mud, and screaming so hard I could barely understand him. By the time his words made sense, he was already pulling me toward the water.

We found crushed reeds, cloudy water, and half a sack of bread near the bank.

Deputies searched until dark. They checked the pond, the road beyond the fence, and the drainage path that carried water away after heavy rain. A distant cousin named Vince, who lived nearby, stayed outside searching all night.

The deputies believed Lily had slipped near the edge and been carried into the deeper current. They called it a tragic accident.

Patrick called it his fault.

A duck had been trapped in the reeds. Lily wanted to help it. Patrick had been holding her hand. He let go for one second to grab the bread sack before it blew into the water.

When he looked back, Lily had stepped too close.

And then she was gone.

From that day forward, Patrick woke up screaming.

“I shouldn’t have let go of her hand.”

We tried therapy. We tried patience. We tried every gentle explanation people could offer. But nothing reached the part of Patrick that believed he had failed his sister in one careless second.

Then, on what would have been Lily’s seventh birthday, Patrick asked me for sunflower seeds.

“They were her favorite,” he whispered. “We should still celebrate her.”

So we planted them together behind the farmhouse.

The first patch was uneven and messy, but Patrick loved it. After that, it became our tradition. Every spring, we turned the soil together and pressed new seeds into the ground. Every summer, Patrick sat among the tall yellow blooms and told Lily everything she had missed.

When he made the baseball team, he told the sunflowers first.

Last Saturday marked six years since we lost her. Patrick woke before sunrise and asked if we could bring lemonade to the garden before the day grew hot.

The moment we stepped outside, he stopped moving.

Every sunflower had been cut down.

Every single one.

Except one tall stalk standing in the center of the patch.

A small white box hung from it by a ribbon.

Patrick looked at me.

“Mom…”

My hands shook as I untied the ribbon. When I opened the box, my knees nearly gave out.

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